Wishing someone would just say it was going to be okay. Someone to hold me, my hand, try to make it go away. 

Letting things get in the way of what’s important. What’s right, what to do. Is it you against me? Or me against you? Or are we on the same team? Is there something that I’m missing…

Trying to sort out my thoughts, what I feel. Somehow never comes out right. I have no words that are correct.

It seems as though, even if I repeat myself, even if I stand up for myself, even if my words are clear, the message still doesn’t come through…is still ignored. Feels as though it’s something I’ll never escape. So where do I go? Where do I run? Can’t think straight.

I thought writing my thoughts would help, but it hasn’t. I guess I’m just at a loss.