September 2010
46 posts
13.
I love where I live, so I wouldn’t want to move anymore unless I found some place I loved more than here, but somewhere I’ve always wanted to visit is France. Seriously, if someone took me there I’d love them forever. I took french for four years, and I am a little french, so I’d love to go there someday.
Second on my list is Italy. Okay, I’m sorry, but who...
25.
In my bag you would find;
-My cell phone
-Pepper spray
-Wallet
-Coin purse
-Ipod
-Glasses
Haha. So basically, the essentials.
I guess that it was wrong to fall for you at all. I don’t know what I was thinking when I thought it’d work. Maybe it’s pessimism, but I’ve been through this enough times to know. Don’t you think?
I wish I had enough courage to tell you. But I’m ridiculous, so I won’t.
Thanks for being a part of my life
12.
*Kelly called. I woke up.
*Hung out with Kelly. Laughed a lot.
*Dreamt about bubble tea.
*Ate food
*Texted Alex
*Went online
*Took a shower
Yeah.
24.
To the ones who raised me,
to be honest, I don’t have anything to say to either you.
I already told you how I feel. I still feel that way.
Okay. I decided not to go back and put up the stuff that I said I would. It’s a lot of work and the pictures don’t even come up. Lame..
And it’s cool. You shouldn’t be the one trying to make me feel better.
It’s not even a person. Wow. I’m fucking dumb.
I like you a lot. But it probably won’t happen. Don’t want to get my hopes up. You are probably just nice. And I am just being lame. And I should just stop myself while I can.
I should just leave you alone. But I don’t want to pass you up. So I’m stuck. I don’t know what to do.
Well, now I just feel like a loser.
What I like about you;
Funny. Cute. Sweet. Interesting. Good. Nice. Charming. Surprising.
You make me;
Smile. Laugh. Happy. Pleasantly surprised. Nervous.
You give me;
Butterflies.
What I don’t like;
I. feel. weird. liking. you.
It always starts this way though, doesn’t it? I’ll get over it.
Course I will. I like you.
11.
1. All I Wanted-Paramore
2. Have You Tonight-The Morning Light
3. Miss Behavin’-Emery
4. Breathing Room Barricades-The Bled
5. Snitches and Talkers Get Stitches and Walkers-Fall Out Boy
6. Say Anything-Good Charlotte
7. Waste My Life For You-Street To Nowhere
8. Honorable Mention-Fall Out Boy
9. Tragedy-Young Love
10. The Guillotine-Escape The Fate
23.
Something I crave for a lot is pizza, like NO JOKE. I fucking love pizza. Ish the best on this fricken earth. Haha.
Lately, I have also been craving the following;
Burgers. Bacon. and Caesar salad. X]]]]
Hmm. Yummy. Just thinking about it makes me SUPER hungry.
OH. and brownies! :D
YUMMMMMMMM <33333 :]
Okay. It's true.
I definitely like you.
10.
My first love;
My first love was in nineth grade. His name was Adrian…well, we’ll just stick to his first name. He is asian, chinese and filipino specifically, wears class, is random, confusing, and a good guy who is just himself. He’s a Christian, and pretty much follows his faith with no doubts really. From what I gathered anyway. We had ceramics together. He graduated in...
Haha. Sorry for all the angry posts...
Just been getting really irritated lately, and I’m just venting.
:]
Geez.
Yes I KNOW what I’m talking about. I do listen to that. Kay? Thanks. Oh by the way, SHUT THE EFF UP.
22.
I don’t think I’m anything special, or different than anyone. But I also don’t think I’m some worthless piece of shit either.
In all honesty, I am just me.
I don’t think there’s anything that really differentiates me from everyone else.
I’m just myself. That’s it.
30.
My reflection in the mirror.
Well, hello there.
Did you know you never look directly at yourself in the mirror? Why is that?
When you do you nit pick. You see the things that you think others see, but you know deep down they probably don’t. You can tear yourself a part, but I don’t know why. You know you don’t deserve it, and you know it doesn’t get you anywhere.
You...
Wow. Y’all dumb.
I do, maybe I shouldn’t. I don’t want to be hurt again.
I don’t know why, I’m attracted to you. You are fun, and nice…I like that.
It’s not that I have to like someone, it’s just that,
I am start to like you. And I can’t help that. And it wasn’t on purpose.
But I won’t assume that I do. Just like I don’t assume you do. And even...
I think I like you. :]
Ooops. Sorry.
9.
To be honest, this is the first time in a long time where I haven’t thought about my future,
but just about my present. You know, what’s going on in the next couple months, what I want to do and accomplish.
Not the distant future, not the 5-10-20 years from now.
But the actual now.
Of course though, I want to be happy and have good things in my life, like people, and food, and a...
21.
Concerts <3
29.
You use to be the someone I wanted to tell everything to, but now you’re not.
You’re the only person in the whole world that I ever wanted to tell everything to, even all the bad things in my life, even if I thought you would hate me for some of it.
I never wanted to do that before. And that scared me,
but now I don’t want to.
I guess that’s also why this all hurts so...
I got my head and my heart on the dance floor.
<3
You always say things you don’t mean.
And I’ve come to realize that you always will.
I’ve told you how I’ve felt before, you still stay around. Why?
Why do you like to mess with my life?
Oh my gosh. Are you freaking serious?
You motha fuckin’ dick!
8.
To be honest, I don’t know if I’ve ever been fully satisfied with my life.
I think content, but not satisfied.
Once I am happy, and doing what I love, I think I will be.
That’s what I hope for anyway.
20.
I don’t really know who I see marrying or being with in the future.
Like, I can daydream and think about who I could be with, but as far as marrying and spending the rest of my life with?
Yeah, I don’t know. I think that requires more than a name and face. At least, it does to me.
28.
You changed my life, but I kind of hate it, because you’re not around. We don’t really talk, or hang out anymore. I’ve been gone, but sometimes it feels like you left completely, even if you say you care about me.
Nonetheless, you made my life better. We’ve known each other for some time, and then I starting hanging out with you and for once I felt like I had a place in...
7.
Pisces.
*Pisces see human life as limited. Often in a state of daydream.
*Often associated with music, dance, drama, and other forms of art
*Shy, romantic, trustworthy, aloof, dreamy, creative, understanding, unrealistic, impractical
*Likes; romance, nature, ambient music, poetry, mystical settings, being loved/wanted, freedom, privacy
*Dislikes; noise, crowds, dirt & ugliness, garish...
19.
Nicknames. I don’t remember many of them. Mostly because people don’t really use them much anymore, but I’ll try.
Jadeykins, Jadebird, Birdie, Shorty [haha]…
Yeah. Don’t really have many, or don’t get called many at least anymore. Most people just call me Jade. Haha.
And I don’t really remember why I was given these nicknames. Haha. Just who.
27.
The friendliest person I only knew for a day; Tim.
I met you last year at Warped Tour because you knew Morgan. Haha. I remember the first time I saw you too. Me and Kelly were leaving after So Long Davey played. We saw my dad and starting walking towards him when someone tapped me on the shoulder and it was my ex, Enrique. I hugged him then saw Eriel, my somewhat shared date with Ronald to ASB...
Shit.
I don’t know if that helps. Oops. Sorry.
Don’t pay any attention to that…yes?
<3
karlcalv asked: Dear Jade.
Not everyone hears it everyday, so I would like to take the time to tell you that...
You're amazing! Have a fantastic day.
Yours truly,
Karl
Not everyone hears it everyday, so I would like to take the time to tell you that...
You're amazing! Have a fantastic day.
Yours truly,
Karl
6.
I could barely think of 15, now I got to think of 30. Well, I guess we’ll see how this goes.
1. 18. Just graduated from San Diego School of Creative and Performing Arts aka SDSCPA aka SCPA. Haha. XD
2. I love teapots, bridges, tulips, and lakes.
3. Portland is undeniably beautiful, but San Diego is my home. <3
4. My brother Skyler is the most important person in my life.
5. I miss...
18.
My plans are as follows:
Come back from Portland. Get a job. Help move in and make our apartment a “home.” Learn “Someday” by Jesse Barrera on guitar.
My dreams are:
Uhm. Yeah. I don’t know?
My goals are:
Non-existent.
Yeah, me and goals DON’T mesh.
26.
I promised we’d have bigger and better times together. But I don’t think we can. You are moving away. And quite franklly,
you’re not good for me. Not even slightly. And it’s not good to be around you, and to talk to you. We always get into this circle and we can’t get our way out of it.
We need to.
We’re the kind of paid who are better off apart.
Far apart.
Wow. Thank you. :]
That made me feel wayyy better <3
5.
A time where I thought about ending my life. There have been a few of those. I will just say the more recent one because I remember it more better since it’s fresher.
The last time I thought about ending my life was in July. My life was one big mess of heartache and stress. My parents were fighting all the time and it was growing old. My mom was packing and angry all the time. My dad not...
17.
I wouldn’t want to switch places with ANYONE for a day.
Because even though someone else’s life might seem better than mine, it’s possible that in actuality it’s not
Plus, I like being me,
so I wouldn’t trade places with anyone.
Besides, MAYBE, one person,
only because they’re lifestyle is very different than mine and I’d like to understand it more.
...
You are it. I am sorry I fell for you. I am sorry that I enjoy you’re company, you’re charm, you. I am sorry that I like you so much. I am sorry that I feel this for you.
When the fog sets in over the trees. I can’t see, but I try. When the lake is murky. I can’t see the bottom, and I’m afraid. When the ducks came to feed. I fed them, and they left. When it rains....
you are the best thing that's ever been mine
25.
You are going through the worst of times. Cancer is no laughing matter.
But honestly, you are strong, and great, and amazing, and not a quitter,
I know you can get through it.
I don’t doubt that for a second.
I love you <3